My Piece of Shit

Words, with words u can do anything, today these words so happening, including likes n hurting. Well, actually i dnt care, i wnna b a free man, i hv mw own rights to say what i feel, NOT ONLY 4 LISTENING, i have mine too, but sometimes they forget. I used 2be ignored, or something, sometime it feels like careless, even when i'm in hardly in pain, wow, i feel amazing to know who's care or not, right now, i wnna b someone who careless, where's someone when i needed most, the closest most, they're not there, i dnt knw they're too busy but, now i cant care anymore.

I almost got big trouble in my stomache, i tried n i've tried my best 2not INto hospital, which is i must, but i wont. I got my moms attention, yet 4 a while, got my sister attention, it makes more care 4me, i really appreciate it to her, my frens? where? do i hv any? they came, when i send a news of me. Well they came, eventually..and? that's it? After that i struggle myself, always positive thinking, wondering my frens that "always came" but now n suddenly they disappear..

I couldn't careless anymore, this is what i'm feeling , if u asked me, thats my answer, this is what i feel, n im very thankfull to have this feeling, so i knw who's in my heart now, dont wanna b fooled anymore, enough is enough. Now, if u wanna b listened or what, c d person. i'm still like this, still u know who i am, i just dont want 2 b like this anymore, i feel being used. And i wanna have someone who had IMPACT 4me, u need me im there, but dont ever let it happen again if i needed u, u're not there.

Everyone wants 2be noticed, everyone needs 2be cared, dont forget who u are n where u're from, but sometimes when i feel like this, judging myself like this, is like im guilty, but im not, i just wanna b heard, b noticed, just same like u. I am d guilty one, i am d stranger one, maybe yet u lost me, cz there's nothing left in me.

Now, being alone, yes alone, makes me thinking n wondering, what next? Maybe if i die n when im dying n i wouldn't notice anyone, no one  knows. U'll laugh or even careless read this piece of shit of me, cz im writing my piece of shit wth no relationShit i ever Shit have wrote.

Thanks 4everything, 4making this piece of shit meaningful 4me.

anything but writing

I miss my blog, i havent wrote anything since im sick, feel so lonely n uncomfortable, mis my hamster, but now im better! n took care my hamster again, n got newbies!! ^^, so cute ><. Still i cant get my mood 2 write this, i've tried, sorry bloggy =='' cz my mood now is beyond u can ever imagine

The Only Exception - Paramore

When I was younger I saw my daddy cry
and curse at the wind.
He broke his own heart and I watched
as he tried to reassemble it.

And my momma swore
that she would never let herself forget.
And that was the day that I promised
I'd never sing of love if it does not exist.

But Darling,
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we've got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Keep a straight face.
And I've always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I had sworn to myself
that I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I've got a tight grip on reality,
but I can't let go of what's in front of me here.
I know you're leaving in the morning
when you wake up.
Leave me with some kind of proof its not a dream.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.

I'm on my way to believing
And I'm on my way to believing

February 12th 2011

It's a big match between Manchester United VS Manchester Shitty (City)
well the big match ends well, with a Victory from Manchester United!! YEY!! Also the Awesome Magnifico Goal by Rooney!! Yes ROONEY!! and being watched with Becks Fam! Here some d pics! Enjoy!!

what a nice celebration it was

Im very happy and so lucky to watched this match! best day evaaaa :D

 Becks Fam! M.U FANS!!

why

why i should care 4 u?
why i should love u?
why i should patience 2 u?
why?
u wnted 2b loved
u wnted ub cared
u wnted it all
ignorence d presence of your children

we are here 4 u
stand beside u
alwys there 4u

but u didnt notice
u wouldnt even care
u're so arrogant
u forget who u are

if i had 2make a wish
i wish i nver exist

thx mom
4wht u done
to us
your family

no matter wht
u're d mother
n i love u

gomen -.-

hahaha..dsr norak dah gw XDD nyahahaha

Menjajal jajal hahahaha :DD

Olla ^^

YEAH ITS U!!

It's so damn hard 2get help from closest fren, but when THEY NEED U!! yes u DAMN RIGHT i'll ALWAYS BE THERE!! u still dont get it, n all u can say is SORRY

Well u knw what?? I DONT NEED YOUR SORRY!

DAMN U!!

SO SICK OF U ALL!!

I WONT CARELESS NO MORE!!

YES!! NO MORE!

once upon a time..-revealed

once upon a time..i hurted some1..who i really loved..
i break d rules..i break d mold..i break evrythng..
no 1 knows..no 1..xcept d lord..
mybe i hv 2 accept 4 wht i did..even turns 2b like this..
enough..once a bad guy..u're a bad guy..
stay away frm Nice people..
--thts wht frens r 4??..dnt cre bout tht..once again..i accept it..

but..think clearly..dnt judge some1..
nowadays..people not we used 2 see..
well, rite now..im using tht now..
i'll judge ur way..
constantly i wont believe any1..again..

thx..4evrythng i made u n 4 wht u made 4 me