once upon a time..-revealed

once upon a time..i hurted some1..who i really loved..
i break d rules..i break d mold..i break evrythng..
no 1 knows..no 1..xcept d lord..
mybe i hv 2 accept 4 wht i did..even turns 2b like this..
enough..once a bad guy..u're a bad guy..
stay away frm Nice people..
--thts wht frens r 4??..dnt cre bout tht..once again..i accept it..

but..think clearly..dnt judge some1..
nowadays..people not we used 2 see..
well, rite now..im using tht now..
i'll judge ur way..
constantly i wont believe any1..again..

thx..4evrythng i made u n 4 wht u made 4 me

Pilihan dan Kesempatan

Saat kita bertemu dengan seseorang yang Sempurna, yang kita cintai di saat yang tepat, di tempat yang tepat dan di waktu yang tepat.

Itu adalah Kesempatan.

Saat kamu bertemu seseorang yang membuatmu tertarik. Itu bukan Pilihan.

Itu adalah Kesempatan.

Selalu bersama/bertemu dalam suatu waktu (dan banyak pasangan yang jadian karena hal ini) bukanlah suatu Pilihan.

Itu adalah Kesempatan .

Perbedaannya adalah setelah semuanya itu terjadi.

Kapan kau akan membawa rasa cinta, suka, ketertarikan tersebut naik ke tingkat selanjutnya?

Ketika kemudian akal sehat kita kembali bermain, kita akan duduk dan menimbang kembali apakah kau ingin melanjutkan hubungan tersebut atau melepaskannya?..

Jika kau memilih untuk mencintai seseorang tersebut, meskipun dengan segala kekurangannya, itu bukanlah Kesempatan.

Itu adalah Pilihan.

Disaat kau memilih untuk bersama dengan seseorang, tidak peduli dengan hal lainnya.

Itu adalah Pilihan

Meskipun kau tahu banyak orang di luar sana yang lebih menarik pintar, dan lebih kaya daripada pasanganmu, dan ya!, kau memutuskan untuk tetap mencintai pasanganmu apa adanya.

Itu adalah Pilihan.

Cinta, suka, ketertarikan datang kepada kita dari kesempatan.
Tetapi cinta sejati itu adalah sungguh-sungguh suatu pilihan.
Sebuah pilihan yang kita buat.

Berkenaan dengan teman sejiwa atau pasangan hidup, ada sebuah kutipan indah dari seorang bijak :

"Nasib membawamu untuk bersama, tetapi untuk tetap bersama sampai akhir itu semua tergantung dari dirimu."

Saya percaya bahwa teman sejiwa itu benar-benar ada.
Bahwa ada seseorang khusus diciptakan untukmu.

Tetapi itu masih tetap tergantung pada dirimu untuk membuat pilihan tersebut, apakah kau akan melakukannya atau tidak.

Kita mungkin akan menemukan teman sejati kita dengan kesempatan yang ada, tetapi untuk mencintai dan bersama dengan teman sejiwa kita, itu adalah tetap pilihan kita untuk mewujudkannya.


Kita datang ke dunia ini BUKAN untuk mencari seseorang yang SEMPURNA untuk mencintai...

Tetapi untuk belajar, bagaimana Mencintai seseorang yang TIDAK sempurna dengan SEMPURNA...

T.I.M.E

what is right? n what is wrong?
do we hv 2 fight?
wht prblm should we fixed?
u and i r so different now..
whn u're awake..n im about 2 sleep..
whn im awake..u're sleepy..
time nvr made us 1..

we should gv us a try..
2 take some rest 4 a while..
n whn d times lead us back..
untill then, so long 4 now..
though i oly wtch u frm behind n loving u secretly..
though my love nvr ends..
but my heart wont wait anymore..
hope can c u soon..in a perfect time
like we used to
i miss u..

28-04

got stumble..its not lil..but a big stumble..
crashing my mind..im out of sight now..
there's no light i can c..
there's no smile i can share wth..
its done n finished..
thx 4evrythng..
d smiles..
d tears..
d happiness..
d joy n laughter..
so long my long lost love..
i c u whn i c u..

evry story has an ending..
but in life evry ending is a new beginning

If

Can i erase ths pain?
It kills me inside..
The pain tht hardly 2 explain..
Smtimes i feel im going 2die..
Smtimes i feel i can fly..
Wht if i die tnight?tmrrow?..
Die i fear not..
Can i make it through heaven?..
Does anyone miss me?
Do i make them sad?

My soul is strong not my heart..
If im dying..will u b by myside?..
Whn my soul begin 2cry..im only thngkng of u..
Though if heaven not exist,hell i shall in..
My spirits within..
Brave me not,scares me..
Love me not,it makes u hurt deeply..

Loving u is my joy,
leaving u is my grief..
Arigato 4evrythng..
4d love..4evrythng..
Whn i die, i shall no breathing..
When i stand still..im alive again..
God is listening n hear my praying..
I just wna live once again..

Dear U Honey

when did d last time i saw u crying?
when did d last time i saw u smiling?
when did d last time i make u happy?
when did it all begins?
million tears u shed in d floor
million pain i cost u n hurt u
though u keep holding on
wth somthing i can not gv u more

im not in d place i should be
im not like i used 2 be
1 thing 4 sure
im still loving u trully

yes, there's a mirror infront of us
it takes time 2break it
im sorry

Hari ini,malam ini tepatny,

benar-benar buruk..

Dari yang sudah-sudah..
Waktu yang ditunggu..

terbuang percuma
semua daya,semua upaya,sia-sia..
Ad yg salah,tidak semestiny,

tidak pada tempatny..
Kemana waktu itu pergi begitu saja,

tidak dimanfaatkn..
Kini cuma bisa tertegun dan heran,

apa yang salah?
Waktu..untuk apa dan buat apa,

aku sudah tak perduli..
Cuma bisa diam,tak trucap,

trlnjur lelah..

Damn, it's true :p

im your shadow..im your knight in d dark
im your only 1 .. tht u can depend
when you're down
desperate n breakdown
i alwys there..

u dnt knw me..if u knw me
u wouldnt notice me
im a stranger
wth a pleasure n a heart
ready 2serve u

will it happen?
i guess not..
cz im your shadow
its my job 2protect u
far away
u wouldnt knw

cz im disappear
u couldnt find me
just ask your heart
would it b me
or some1else
ths tiny lil thing
leads 2u

--damn its true--

Leave It All Behind

my hopes n tears are dry..
my weakness fly by..
drowned..
time goes by..
as i move on into a new world called "i dnt knw why"
as i lost my right wing pass me by..
as i lost my sight there;s no light..
as i lost a figure..strong n wise..
as i lost my love..sweet n nice..
i leave it all behind..

im still searching whts on my mind..
whts left behind..
untight feeling..kills me inside
the gulit..the lost..

u may hate me..
u may hurt me..
i can breathe easly if u do tht..

but i still hv a lil spark of light..
its lil n its tiny..yet small..
it keeps me alive
thts wht im hold on to..

im sorry..
i knw its not easy..
i knw its misery..
i knw cz i've been there too

life is beautifull
love is complicated..
it will b wonderfull
if u'd move on n 4get d rest of it..

im still here
n alwys be..

tc

Fightoooo

The clock is ticking

Time is running

I'm thinking

I'm wishing

Everything's gonna be alright

Need someone to hold me tight

I don't know what is wrong 

I don't know what is right

Now i know..

I have to fight

Bring The Rain

Ibuku

Aku takut, jujur ini ketakutanku yg paling besar, semua karena darah dagingku, ikatan darahku, ibuku. Jalan yang sekarang aku pilih, merupakan jalan yang terakhir yang bisa aku lakukan. Sadarlah, mau sampai kapan kita berjalan seperti ini? Diriku kangen kasih sayangmu, diriku kangen belaianmu, bukan hinaan dan kata2 ketidaksukaanmu, bukan makianmu yang kau lontarkan ke orang lain.

Sudah habis masa diamku, sudah habis airmataku, hanya untuk selalu berdoa untukmu, kesehatanmu dan menjaga perasaanmu, karena kutahu, kuhanya bisa menyakitimu, tidak bisa membahagiakanmu dengan semua materiku.

Pulanglah kejalan yang lurus, kami rindu padamu, segala cara dan upaya dilakukan untukmu. Kami yang tidak ada artinya dan tidak tahu keinginanmu, bisa memberikan sayang, tapi sayangnya tidak pernah cukup untukmu. Maafkan aku ibu, kami merindukan dirimu yang dulu

Good Job Mom!

Today is a very annoying day, ever! Well, my mom's turns out nuts by inviting some strangers in my house, and let them 2 stay! what d??!! It's not a secret anymore that my moms completely gone mad, crazy damn selfish, but that's my mom, hate it or not, damn i realy don't like this situation.

What are you trying 2 do mom? you' re d person i've ever know that never satisfied, n cost my dad's life! remember that! what are you try 2 play in here? do you need more satisfaction? or sympathize from anyone? FUCK YOU!!

I wish i was never born from your V, you're too much cost damage of this family, your own family mom! You never cared, once you will it because your son is sick, that's it?! Sometimes i pray, why you're not just dead! and sometime i won't regret what i said to you. This is too much! Can you stop your thing? stop being ASSHOLE, and RUIN everything!

 

Are you happy now? geeeezz!! cut it out!! i'm sick and tired seing you acting like this!

Never thought it would be this hard

Never thought missing you till this part

Never thought it hurts so badd

 for now

You're My ...

Can't help this feeling inside

It kept from my lung in to my heart

It's heavy and it's hard

I don't knowwhere to start

'Cause i'm afraid :

All the things i should say

All the words i shall pray

It's all my mind on you

Can't hold any longer

Please hurry,

before this torture feeling won't be wound

Before it's broken

Though i lose my wings

I shall fly

Dingin

Biar aku yang mengatakan

Biar aku yang menjelaskan

Biar aku yang menenangkan

Semua yang ada pada dirimu

Karena ku tahu kau tak dapat mengungkapkannya

Itulah dirimu

dan inilah diriku

Membuka lembaran demi lembaran

Perasaan yang sulit kutahan

Biarkan terungkap, biarkan terlepas

Hingga kapan ini bertahan

Kuberi semua kehangatan

Karena perasaan ini takkan hilang

Sebelum terbuang...

Mungkin

Ku tahu ku takkan dapat

memilikimu seutuhnya..

Yang ku tahu sekarang, kita diberi waktu]

 untuk bersama..

Tak ingin ku menghitung waktu,

saat dengannya..

Walau ku tahu pasti kan ada akhirnya

Ku kan manfaatkan waktu,

yang tiap detik berharga

Detik tiap kita bersama,

tawa yang hanya milik berdua

Ku hanya dapat berdoa,

agar kita bisa terus bersama

Izinkan diri ini untuk membuatnya selalu bahagia

Hingga waktu memisahkan kita, nantinya

piece of me

is in you

                                                                      

means can't

i wish

i hope

i might

i have

but,

i couldn't

ouch

Sepertinya semakin tidak ada harapan, 

walau kau mencoba berpaling tetap terhadang

Kembali berpaling kau semakin menghilang,

pupus sudah!

Lady Night III

Gerangan dirimu terlihat ketika kuberpaling darimu

Merasukiku seketika, kuterdiam..tidak lama untuk mencintaimu kembali

It's All About You --> to my lady night

What should i do?

My heart never be true

'Cause there's something in my heart,

that i have no clue..

You're too good to be true

This is the feeling i never knew

I cant stop thinking of you

It's all because of you, i wanna say thank you

For letting me to know you

 There's no dream that won't be true

If i cant be with you

Let me open our heart,

and lets make a start,

i love u

1 menit :p

Ada sinar menyelimuti hati

Terangnya menyejukkan hati

Bagai bintang yang bersinar di siang hari

Karena kau selalu menerangi,

jiwa yang redup ini...

Teruslah bersinar..

Karena kau cahaya,

sekaligus penerang bagi jiwa ini

Apa?

Ulurkan tanganmu..

Dengan senang ku meraihnya

Berikan senyum indahmu..

Dengan senang ku membalasnya

Katakanlah yang ingin kau tanya..

Dengan senang ku kan menjawabnya

Masih dinginkah suhu tubuhmu?

Dengan senang ku menghangatkannya

Apa yang masih kau cari?

Dengan senang ku kan mengambilnya

Hanya untukmu seorang..

Karena kau spesial, istimewa,

tak dapat ku tolak

Karena ku bahagia,

bila hati ini..sampai padamu

Sobekan Kertas

Ku masih mengingat..

Isi hati yang kau robek di depanku

Sakit menusuk relung,

hingga ku termenung..

Sampai mana diri ini berarti,

untukmu,,sampai kapan ku kan dapat bertahan..

Andai kau tahu isi hatiku,

atau ku harus jauh darimu?

Entah kapan kau buka hatimu...

Berapa lama ku terus menunggu?

Hatimu yang terlalu beku,

kapankah akan mencair?

Apakah diri ini mempunyai tempat khusus dihatimu?

Morning Glory

Mooorrrning :D 

What a day yesterday, full of romantic, lil chaos, lil distract, but it's full of love, hahaha.., well my lady night didn't text me yesterday, i miss her :p i only can hope that she'll be fine :) so, ost for her is from Maroon 5 She Will Be Loved, here's the reff :

I don't mind spending everyday..Out on your corner in the pouring rain
Look for the girl with the broken smile..Ask her if she wants to stay awhile
And she will be loved..She will be loved

That song so describes you babe :p hope you can see into your heart, many person is worry about you, so open your heart :)

Lady Night II

Lady night lady night lady night..

How i can never stop saying your name,

o my lady night, can u see me here?

watching you untill you sleep

O my lady night,

how i wanna hold you so tight

how i wanna keep you warm at night

how i wanna be with you till i died

I wanna release you from your nitemare

i wanna escape you from your despair

these arms so cold now

wish you were here

wish you were mine

Lady Night

Lady night-ku kemana ya..kok ga ad kabarnya lagi..Kangen bgt pdahal, heuh resiko ini mah :/ it's tough really tough =='' mngkn "dy" (lady night) sdh tau, mnduga, mnebak, ya itu benar..itu jawabanku..

Apakah drimu sdh baik lg denganny? =='' kdang ak tak mau tahu jwbn atwpun mnebakmu saat kubertanya sperti itu, terpukul driku..

Kubisa membahagiakanmu..tapi itu tidak mungkin, diriku, dirimu, dirinya..sangatlah WOW!! kusendiri tak sanggup membayangkannya, kuterus mencoba sampai kapan bertahan, inikah kita? salah, bukan kita, belum sampai situ karenanya...

Lady night-ku..aku,.......

andai saja kau tahu

Kertas Putih

Bagai kertas putih yang siap kutulis,

itulah dirimu..

Warna ap yg cocok untukny?

Apakah merah, hitam, atau biru?

Sangat halus dan rapuh...

Ku kan hati-hati menorehkannya

Darimana ku kan memulainy?

Sangatlah polos dan hijau...

Apakah warnaku tepat untukmu?

Apakah tangan ini akan selalu dapat menjaganya?

Kau kertas putih yang sangat ingin kutulis..

Kuberikan semua yang kupunya..

Kusiap menorehkan namaku,

di lembar kertas putih ...

yaitu dirimu.

Not

Irama detak jantung bernyanyi
Seakan akan mengisi getaran yang tlah lama berhenti
Ku tertegun menatapi,
wajah yang telah lama kunanti..
Hati yang ingin kudekati,
terbuai oleh alunan cinta,
diri yang tak kunjung kuasa,
menatap mata yang dikirim dari surga...

Kurasakan detakmu..
Kurasakan kita telah menyatu..
Dalam alunan lagu,
detak dan getarmu..
Mengisi kekosongan "Not" tubuhku yang beku..

LOOK AT THE WORLD AROUND YOU

YOU SEE GOD'S CREATIVITY

LOOK AT THE LUNCHTABLE

YOU SEE GOD'S PROVIDENCE

LOOK AT THE MIRROR,

YOU SEE GOD'S FIRST MISTAKE!! 

                 

><

Unintended by Muse

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You could be the one I'll always love
You could be the one who listens to my deepest inquisitions
You could be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

First there was the one who challenged
All my dreams and all my balance
She could never be as good as you

You could be my unintended
Choice to live my life extended
You should be the one I'll always love

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

I'll be there as soon as I can
But I'm busy mending broken pieces of the life I had before

Before you 

Hillarious from Korean's Boyband : Miss Am XDD

I nver saw some2 hilarious clip like this!!

Check this out!! XDD

                                           oh my dog!!! XDD

Cant u imagine??!! hahahahaha..they're so funny! totally! XDD ..the real video is from my favourite girlband from Korea : Miss A, now check the original 1!..ENJOY!! :DD

                                           Miss A !! ^0^/

Korean music n fashion are dominated in d worldwide now! wow! very amazing, i never thought it would b like this, they really make it through, im starting 2 like it now, hehe

Iris by Goo Goo Dolls

And I'd give up forever to touch you
Cause I know that you feel me somehow
You're the closest to heaven that I'll ever be
And I don't want to go home right now
Verse 2

And all I can taste is this moment
And all I can breathe is your life
Cause sooner or later it's over
I just don't want to miss you tonight
Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Verse 3

And you can't fight the tears that ain't coming
Or the moment of truth in your lies
When everything seems like the movies
Yeah you bleed just to know your alive

Chorus

And I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am
Chorus

I don't want the world to see me
Cause I don't think that they'd understand
When everything's made to be broken
I just want you to know who I am

I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am
I just want you to know who I am 

Beyond My Blindfold

there is someone..
that i cant looking at it
there is someone..
that i cant spell it
there is someone..
that i cant have it

i cant see wht i shall see
i cant write anythng
all d words i wnna say

evrytime i see u
evrytime i look at u
keep stare n watching u
far away

but then,
i open my eyes..
i see light, right infront of me
shimmering me so bright

but when i wnna close my eyes,
she hold me tight..
i put my blindfold a side
n now i stare d moonlight

Here Is Gone by Goo Goo Dolls

You and I got somethin'

But it's all and then it's nothin to me, yeah

And I got my defenses

When it comes through your intentions for me

And we wake up in the breakdown

With the things we never thought we could be

I'm not the one who broke you

I'm not the one you should fear

We got to move you darlin

I thought I lost you somewhere

But you were never really ever there at all

*

And I want to get free

Talk to me

I can feel you falling

And I wanted to be

All you need

Somehow here is gone

I am no solution

To the sound of this pollution in me

And I was not the answer

So forget you ever thought it was me

I'm not the one who broke you

I'm not the one you should fear

We got to move you darlin

I thought I lost you somewhere

But you were never really ever there at all

*

And I want to get free

Talk to me

I can feel you falling

And I wanted to be

All you need

Somehow here is gone

And I dont need the fallout

Of all the past that's in between us

And I'm not holding on

And all your lies weren't enough to keep me here

back to chorus n repeat

Me n My Hamu2

Ollllaaaaaa ^0^/

it's my 1st time 2write ths after d poems ^^ ..i hv many hamster in my house, they're so cuteeee ><, but many of them got pregnant (damn -.-) well, here some of d pic ^^

                                           ths is shayne ^^ now she's pregnant :p hehe

                                           ths is syrian hamster ^^

                                           ths is Chiki, she had 6 babies, love 'em ><

                                                n ths is me wth Chiki's child ^^

It's You

I'd like to see you..
Your eyes, your smile,
and everything in you..

I want to know you..
What you're thinking,
Your heart, anything about you..

I do really want to love you..
Do you feel the same way too?
I do really need you
I'm waiting your signal

Don't make wait too long..
'cause you're the reason
Where i belong..

To me, is oncomplete,
without you,
oshiete kudasai (tell me)

Undefined feeling

How come our feeling like this?
What should i do?
What's wrong?
Is there something that you hide from me?

Can you tell me?
Where were we?
Why must like this?
Is this what you want?
What is it?

I love you...
I really do,
Do you love me?
I cant wait no more,
answer me, or
I'll be gone

UNO

This is the world that I know

This is the world that I will show

Who I am

Who I will be

Will Create Unity
...